December 01, 2006

Name: Adam Tiffen
Posting date: 12/1/06
Returned from: Iraq
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The morning sun has brought with it an unusually cloying heat, and I find myself dosing off in the relative quiet of the Alamo CP. Outside, soldiers pull security on the rooftop and on the front gate, and fight to stay awake after a long night of running missions.

Inside the Alamo, soldiers that have just come off of a guard shift lay fully clothed on green, sweat-stained cots. Two small rooms have been outfitted with air conditioning, and a dozen cots have been crammed into each. Other soldiers lay sprawled on the uneven tile floor, their noses buried in month-old copies of well-worn magazines and tattered paperback books.

Coming off of my rounds, I can’t seem to find the energy to get up and find a spare cot, so I sit in a chair in the CP to doze. Yawning, I cover my mouth and glance at my watch. 1300. The hottest part of the day. Leaning back in the chair, I stretch out my tired muscles, close my eyes and think of home.

Outside the window to the CP, there is a deafening explosion. I am suddenly wide awake. The soldiers sleeping on the cots jerk awake, looking sleepily at one another in confusion and alarm. There is a second explosion.


“What the fuck?!”

The soldiers curse as they throw themselves out of their cots and in an organized scramble, snatch up their body armor and run to their battle stations. Someone outside is shouting. “Incoming! Incoming!” We are being mortared.

I'm on my feet, reaching for the radio.The I-Com clicks and I hear the excited voice of one of the soldiers on the roof. He is a private, and he shouts excitedly into the radio.

“CP this is Gun 2!”

“Gun 2 this is CP, send it!”

“A house across the street just exploded!”

My whole train of thought stops. A house just exploded. What the hell? Outside I can hear the thundering crash of other explosions. They seem to be moving further and further away. After the fourth explosion there is silence outside. The silence is deafening.

Glancing out of the door to the CP, I can see that all of the cots are empty. The soldiers are in their battle positions, and the Alamo is now at full security.The mortar attack may be the prelude to a VBIED attack or a ground assault. I key the handset again. “Gun 2, tell me exactly what you saw.”

This time the calmer voice of the Sergeant of the Guard replies. He had gone to the roof to check for damages and assess the situation. “Roger Sir, it looks like something hit the building just south of the Alamo. Probably a mortar round. Whatever it was caused an explosion on the roof. We counted four other explosions. All south of the Alamo running in a line moving east to west.”

“Roger, so the house didn’t explode.”

“That’s a negative sir.”

In the background, I hear the private swear in a sheepish voice. Things are making a hell of a lot more sense. I can’t help but smile.

“Alright, get a team together and meet me at the front gate. Let’s check out the damage and see if anyone has been hurt.”


After notifying Battalion about the attack, I shrug on the rest of my gear and head out into the harsh sunlight. I instantly break out in an uncomfortable sweat beneath the body armor.

A squad of soldiers is assembled and ready to move out. They are still tense. They grip their rifles and scan for trouble as we move out of the chicane.

In the town, people are beginning to emerge from their houses. They walk from house to house and check on one another after the attack. To the southeast, a skinny, barefoot boy is standing at the corner of an intersection. He has dark, curly hair and is wearing striped blue shorts and a green shirt. I do a doubletake.

“Save the Rainforests” is printed in bold yellow lettering on his tattered green t-shirt. The irony is painful.

I turn to the squad leader standing next to me. “Alright, let’s go check out the house that was hit and see what kind of damage was done.” He motions to his squad, and they begin to fall into teams, spreading out to provide security on both sides of the street. Turning west, we pass near a small huddle of women, dressed head to toe in an all encompassing black. They fall silent as we pass by, then continue their hushed discussion.

There is stillness, as if the town is holding its breath.

A middle-aged man walks up to the squad as we move thru a trash-strewn alley, stepping gingerly over fetid pools of liquid green waste. He is wearing a long, white cotton robe, with yellow sweat stains under the armpits. His teeth are crooked and shine a dull yellow in his dark, sagging face.

Walking up, he turns and speaks to Max, the interpreter. Max looks like something of a pirate, with a bandanna pulled up over his face and his dark, expressionless eyes peering out underneath heavy brows. He has a threatening, brooding presence about him, and the man had been hesitant to approach him. Now Max turns to me. “Sir, this is the man whose house was hit.”

“Okay, tell him to show us his house and show us the damage.”

The man listens to Max, and abruptly turns around, heading down the muck-strewn street. He keeps a fast pace, his sandaled feet stepping neatly over the heaps of refuse stacked up against the walls of the crumbling yellow brick buildings.

Up ahead, I can see the house described by the Sergeant of the Guard. The two-story building rises haphazardly into the sky, as if the second level was added as an afterthought. Still, it shows signs of wealth, with a pigeon coop on the roof, and clear glass windows.

As we approach I quickly reassess the situation.There is not a single pane of glass left unbroken. In fact, there is no glass left unbroken in the windows of the houses on the other side of the street either. The blast from the mortar round has shattered the flimsy, single-paned windows, blowing jagged fragments out into the dirt and dust. We are lucky that there weren’t any serious casualties.

Looking up, I can see clear blue sky thru a gaping hole in the reinforced cement balcony overhanging the front door. The cement is smashed and scarred, with bent and twisted strips of rebar sticking through. The house took a direct hit.

The sandaled man walks directly up to the house and steps over the cracked rubble that has been blasted from his roof. He enters the building, closely followed by the squad leader and two of the soldiers from his alpha team. Each of the soldiers looks up at the hole, and their upturned faces are briefly illuminated by the powerful sun shining through.

Outside the building I stop and watch the activity across the muddy street. A construction crew is squatting on their haunches, watching with wary eyes as the remainder of the soldiers in the patrol secure the perimeter of the home. The men are mixing cement by hand in round shallow dishes. As each batch is ready, the cement is layered onto a row of rough, cracked brick, each trowel-full slopping over the sides. The crumbling bricks manage to hold themselves together. I just can’t figure out how.

Directly in front of the wary bricklayers, one man in a blue shirt and loose black pants stained with cement powder walks barefoot on the dirt, sweeping up fragments of glass with a tattered broom. Although I am sure he can feel my gaze upon him, he never looks in my direction.

Above me I hear a shout, and the backlit head of my squad leader pokes thru the mortar hole in the roof. In his right hand, I can see the fin and tail section of a 60mm round. He is smiling from ear to ear.

“Hey Sir, I got it. Looks like the back azimuth is 146 degrees.”

“Roger, sounds good. Check for any other damage and then come on back down.”

In my head I do a quick calculation. An azimuth of 146 degrees would put the origin of the mortar across a small canal and in the empty fields of an area that is infrequently patrolled by U.S. forces. My platoon will have to pay the farmers in that district an unscheduled visit. Soon.

The team leader descends the staircase and exits the building, followed close on his heels by his two soldiers and the owner of the house. The owner hesitates for an instant as he looks at Max, and then approaches me with a deprecating smile on his face. As he lights a cigarette, he speaks to Max in an insistent voice. Max flushes with indignation.

“Max, what is it.”

Max turns to me, his face an angry red. “He says he wants payment.”

I stop in my tracks and turn around. The man stops walking and lowers the cigarette. In a quiet voice, I ask Max to translate. “Max, ask him what exactly he wants payment for?”

Max translates, and the man answers forcefully. “He says he wants $1,000.00 for the damage to his house. He wants the Americans to pay for it.”

Beside me, one of the soldiers stiffens. Despite his expressionless face and black-mirrored sunglasses, I can tell he wants to say something to the Iraqi. I raise my hand slightly to forestall any outburst. I am pissed off enough for the both of us.

“Why does he feel that we owe him money?”

“He says that you owe him money because the insurgents damaged his home with their mortar attack.”

“Then you tell him that he can ask the fucking insurgents for his money. They are the ones that shot at his home.”

“He says that because the insurgents were shooting at you, you are to blame. His house would not have been damaged if you were not here.”

Max finishes translating. Furious with indignation, he starts to swear at the man in a mixture of English and Arabic, but all I can make out is the word “motherfucker.”

For a second I am speechless. I can’t believe that this man considers the attack our fault. At that instant, every attack I have ever experienced flashes before my eyes. Roadside bombs exploding as our patrols pass by. Soldiers running for cover from incoming mortar rounds. Charred and flaming armored vehicles, exploding from the inside out. Automatic weapons fire raking across an open field. Dead bodies lying in ditches. And this man is blaming us for the mortar attack. He is blaming me.

A burst of frustrated emotions erupts inside of me. Looking directly at the man, I point my finger at him and spit out each word in contempt: "You listen to me closely. What you say is an insult. We did not attack your home today. We came here to help. We are not to blame. If you want to blame someone, blame the terrorists. Ask the terrorists for the money. Ask them to repair your home, and they will kill you without thinking twice."

Max’s voice reflects my restrained anger. For the first time that I can remember, he translates almost as quickly as I speak, our words blending together.

The man is standing still, his face ashen. He takes an unsteady drag on the cigarette, and begins to smile, as if hoping to smooth things over.

“Mister. Mister.”

In a smooth tone, he begins to tell Max that he had not just in fact asked me for money. That he didn’t know what he was saying. That it was all just a big misunderstanding.

My hand drops wearily to my side. The humidity, stress, and lack of sleep is starting to take a toll. After a moment of silence, I turn around and walk away, inhaling deeply and forcing myself to relax. This is not worth getting upset about.

As we move east down the road looking for the next impact site, the soldiers of the patrol fall into a lose formation. Checking the formation, the squad leader makes a quick adjustment before turning around and walking on with his lead fire team. In his gloved right hand he has the body of the 60mm mortar round. I shake my head and breathe deeply, the anger flowing away. Maybe it was all just a misunderstanding. Glancing over my shoulder I see that the man has quickly disappeared from site. Then I mutter under my breath. "Bullshit."

That man knew exactly what he was saying. And he knew exactly how much of an insult it would be.


Adam, How did you keep your temper under control? How did you ever think of that final reply? You hit the nail on the head. It was the truth.

What a different culture and mind set over there. What that man said, even though it was an insult, was probably perfectly normal to him. I think he even tried to apologize to you in his way. It seems that you have a growing understanding of his culture. I admire how you handled the situation. Please keep posting. I'll keep reading. Be safe and Be well.

I don't think he was apologizing at all. I think he backed off because he got the response he wanted. I think he is pissed off with the poor state of his country, and perhaps his life, and wants to hold someone responsible. I'm sure there is a myriad of reasons why he does not blame the real offenders and unfortunately our troops are easy scapegoats.

Thanks for sharing Adam. Please take care of yourself and I hope you come home safely soon.

Wow! The man was alive, sounds like his family was ok, and the best he could do is demand money after ya'll came in to help. Sounds like you handled the situation very well, great job!

Strictly speaking, I don't think the Iraqi considered you responsible for his house being bombed. I'll bet he has a better grip on reality than that. My guess is the motive is opportunistic; you never know what these infidels will go for, and wouldn't it be great if it worked! My first reaction was, just laugh heartily at the guy; but I think your way was better. I think by letting him see your anger, he knows he was taken seriously, and ego was preserved. He got to beard the American and walk away, despite his house getting trashed, perhaps by someone he knew! There is some weird cultural hybridization going on, and it is flowing both ways. I enjoy your posts, stay in one piece!

There is a truth that he might well ponder later and that is that he would never be so stupid as to complain to the real villians in the piece - he would be killed as you said, like swatting a fly! He actually paid you a compliment - you/your men are not like them and all he got was controlled anger and he KNEW that was all he would get. He felt free to express his outrage at the damage to his house. He felt free... Thank-you for bringing and maintaining freedom in Iraq!! You do our nation so proud!!!! God bless you all and keep you safe.

I am glad you kept your calm in terms of action. The description of his speech didn't sound at first like an intentional insult - it didn't say he was smiling or looking shrewdly blank or speaking in a mocking tone, but instead spoke "insistently." Maybe he really did want compensation. Maybe he didn't ask us to come. He might have even heard that U.S. soldiers really are safe to talk to, and been surprised at the anger he got back. Which I don't blame you for, of course. You are trying to help. Thanks for doing your best to keep our honor clean.

Impressive calmness on your side. He probably did know exatcly what he was saying, and maybe believes what he said - there were no terrorists mortaring houses under saddam's rule after all. For him, the house is rubble, and he needs too look for compensation. It's a bad situation that you are held responsible for terrorist actions, and I wonder how od if they will change their mind.

It's true that if you weren't in Iraq, his house wouldn't have been bombed. Look at it from his point of view. The Americans came, and hell followed with them. There were no martar rounds landing on buildings before the invasion. America does owe Iraq some sort of compensation.

Impressive. I remember indigs making demands. It was a combi of hearts and minds and stupid greed.

But, yeah, it was worth a try, he figgered. A grand would go a long ways right now in country. Mebbe he heard somebody else got a deal like that and wanted his.

But when yer wired up, it means so much more. So much more . . . Tight. Yer definitely a 'hacker'.

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