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O'LORD |

May 12, 2010

O'LORD
Name: 1SGT (retired) Troy Steward
Posting date: 5/12/10
Returned from: Afghanistan
Milblog: Bouhammer.com


O’Lord save me from my own abuse,
O’Lord help me to, see the truth
I’ve been blind for so many years, O’Lord

O’Lord help me be a better man,
O’Lord please help me understand
Why we all must hurt like this, O’Lord

Hard to keep the faith when I’m falling
Hard to see your face when I’m crawling
Hard to keep the faith when I’m falling down
With no one around

O’Lord help me to control my rage
O’Lord tell me its not too late
I been angry for way too long, O’Lord

Oh God help me get my head on straight
Oh God take all this booze away
I’ve been locked in a drunken haze, O’Lord

Hard to keep the faith when I’m falling
Hard to see your face when I’m crawling
Hard to keep the faith when I’m falling down
with no one around

Doing this alone is not working out
Booze and broken bones are keeping me down
I need some direction, need it right now
I’m falling down, I’m falling down…

Hard to keep the faith when I’m falling
Hard to see your face when I’m crawling
Hard to keep the faith when I’m falling down
With no one around


You might think the above is a poem from a person under the control of drugs or booze. Or you might think it is a poem by a veteran that suffers from PTSD. It could be either. Personally I think it speaks to many who have returned from war-- any war. It could be the poem of a veteran of WWII, Vietnam, Iraq or Afghanistan. You can see the pain, the struggles, the cries for help. They know the right thing to do, but they can’t do it themselves. They want help, but probably don’t know who to ask or are afraid to ask. Maybe it is their position in life, or their rank in the military, or they are scared of being perceived as weak.

It is no doubt a prayer to a higher power, yearning for help, for assistance, for a second chance.

However it is not a poem, per se. These are lyrics to the song "O’ Lord" by Smile Empty Soul. Sean Danielson penned these words a while back as he wrote the song for their album Consciousness, and I think it speaks to the pain, anger and trials that many veterans face today. I have talked to Sean about this song and I don’t thing he realized its relevance when he wrote it. His hand was guided to write these lyrics and I am glad it was, because I personally feel the impact of the words reaches further than he will ever know.

Comments

I'm not a vet but the words affected me. I appreciate you highlighting them here.

I like this. I feel oddly moved by this passage. Many of my family members are Veterans and they all relate to this.

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